Friday, April 10, 2009

the f-word.


I have never heard anything more profound. I am not the type to share my turmoil with my fellow bloggers, however, this particular topic has haunted me the last couple of days. I am not weak for having this attribute, and after much research and inspirational reading on the topic; I realize I am in fact incredibly strong for putting to use such an amazing characteristic. I've been hurt countless times and have more poems for heartbreak then my journals can swallow. My burden has been that of having a good heart. I am far too compassionate, generous, and remorseful. However, I refuse to be the person who holds grudges. I refuse to be the dweller. You can keep the heavy heart, I want to fly.

Forgiveness is proof
That god is a woman
Wild tangled hair
Eyelashes that have since forgotten how to bat
Since the beginning of time
Swollen stomach with future,
Cramps like lightning
And still has the patience to put up with the worlds shit

She must listen to the lies
We tell
To the moans and thrusts
Of infidelity
Must step on shattered glass
Comprised of broken hearts

Her menstrual
Are feminist tears
Meaning she bleeds on the daily
Grabs her stomach in pain
As wounded souls
Claw her insides
For rebirth

Like them,
I want to be reborn
Be spit out
Breathing air that is clear
Sporting wounds that are healed
Wearing burden on my skin
Engraved or branded
With words like
Rape
Neglect
Pain
Molest

The ones that are whispered in the dark
Yet bold enough for the light
Where there is an onlooker
Sitting Indian style on the sky
Blaming her heavenly palms
For molding clay that hardens
And words that kill
And inventing the word forgiveness.

4 comments:

Ziggy Za. said...

The poetry is dope, as always. Do I really need to tell you that anymore?

It's funny that you blogged about the "F" word; I'm literally editing my Friday Forethought for today, and it's on the same topic. Sometimes it definitely is a hard thing to do, but imagine the possibilities you open yourself up to once you've done it. It's amazing!

Excellent post, Riv.

Little Miss Knobody said...

Nice. Great Post

I have to be honest and say that forgiveness is something that I continue to struggle with. It's ideal, but so hard to do at times...

The Notorious Z.A.G. said...

Beautifully written; although I think I am forgiving to a fault(?); so much so that I still focus on my crushed petals although I've forgiven the situation. I don't know. At any rate that piece was diggity dope!! Wearing burden on my skin; tattooed with words that can only be heard whispering in the dark; I must start to except my social shame and rename my pain, "happiness".. Lil keystyle offa your joint. I'm inspired. Yaaay!! Great blog I'm following YOU when I get home..

The Notorious Z.A.G. said...

Beautifully written; although I think I am forgiving to a fault(?); so much so that I still focus on my crushed petals although I've forgiven the situation. I don't know. At any rate that piece was diggity dope!! Wearing burden on my skin; tattooed with words that can only be heard when whispering in the dark; I must start to accept my social shame and rename my pain, "happiness".. Lil keystyle offa your joint. I'm inspired. Yaaay!! Great blog I'm following YOU when I get home..